Torture By Fan, Little Sleep, Mobbing, Bullying, Caused Pain, Illness

There is more to the story, it has been hell week at the Interfaith Sanctuary. Part of the problem with the flare up was a mentally ill woman being allowed to spray bleach all over the bathroom. The staff gaslighted me on that one too. Some of them are clueless and lack empathy yet are allowed to bully others and have power over their lives. Bleach can cause vasomotor rhinitis and most certainly chlorine is toxic. .As I keep saying, it is like Zimbardo's prison experiment and homeless shelters are essentially night prisons. The poor elderly, the disabled, the addicted, the intellectually impaired are subject to massive abuse, bullying and harm to their health.

For the last two days, a very large fan on the ceiling has been turned on and then aimed in the direction of the area I sleep in. Someone said it had been on the day before, but since it was not aimed at me I never noticed it. Night before last it was freezing cold in the dorm so I thought they had the doors to the laundry room opened. After a while I finally got up to see what was going on and someone told me it was the fan. I never noticed the fan because what kind of sadistic demon would turn on a fan when the temperature goes down in the single digits in the late hours and early morning. I could not have imagined such a thing. It was aimed at me and others in that area, and we have had much discussion in the past that the fan blowing on me causes vasomotor rhinitis, nose bleeds, vascular headaches and flares of CMV or other latent viruses, so they knew of the harm before it was turned on. It also keeps me from sleeping which contributes to the viral bloom. I have a chronic sore throat due to ME/cfs, causing my sinuses to run which makes it very painful. The blowing cold air also dries out nasal membranes making the uptake of viruses more likely. It can cause me to have a rather severe bloody nose­­­­­­.

Sleeping in an area where it is so windy that one must use chapstick is very strange. Having to wear jackets, hoods, hats like you are outside in a freezing cold dorm and being given just a plain blanket to cover yourself while blowing cold air all over when the dorm was already cold at night and can get very cold when they open the doors is sadistic. Announcing last night when they knew we were miserable that everyone can only have one blanket is the icing on the sadism.

They knew for at least two days that the fan was making people very cold. I asked staff to please at least turn it down to blow on the floor so it would not blow on people as it would make me very ill. No action was taken by the bullying, gaslighting staff. Both Tim and Dan knew last night at least and probably the day before. They took no action knowing it would make me sick and that the fan was making us cold. Others complained when staff was not there, but I am the one who has the courage to speak up, this makes me the target. When I complained to the staff she said to wear my jacket, not only did I have it on at the time, but we had been using our jackets to stay warmer before the damn fan was turned on. She also told me the fan was not blowing in my area, but it most certainly was, gaslighting 101. I gave her a simple solution of taking a broom and making the fan point down. She, a social work student at BSU decided to harm the health of others instead of doing something to help us. She has learned the SOP of the Interfaith Sanctuary from the two serial bullies in charge. This is not good for the community.

Dan suggested we wear sweatpants, jackets etc. He knew we were cold and the fan made us colder but that was just OK with him. He knew the fan would make me ill. In fact, yesterday when I woke up in pain I told the staff, I had already informed her at 12:30 AM and I got very little sleep for two nights. I left the shelter yesterday sobbing and that continued for hours due to the pain I was in, the exhaustion, the nausea and more, add the yearlong massive abusive treatment. Then I hid in the afternoon. I told them this and they left the fan on again last night. Then when I returned to the shelter I was mobbed because they are emotionally abusive and lack empathy.

I am now very ill and in a huge amount of pain. There are no regulations of homeless shelters in the United States, non-profits are unregulated and much abuse and safety issues go on. The non-profit industrial complex is allowed to harm the health of the homeless and with their abuse essentially kill people in many ways. Bullying, hypothermia, stress, pathogens (spread by fans, hands and in many other ways due to lack of understanding of the germ theory of disease and caring), lack of sleep, horrible health care, horrible food and the secondary symptom of trauma use of substances to kill the pain. There is massive cigarette smoking which is mostly unregulated so we are exposed to second hand smoke going in and out of the building and when we get in our lockers.

I was called into the office last night for a three on one mobbing while I had no witness or support. There was no warning that more people than Dan would be present. The student just sat there while Tim and Dan tried to intimidate me. I am an expert on bullying. They had a document with a list of rules they wanted me to sign, just like a bully boss would do with an evaluation or write up. It was so sick. For weeks Dan harassed me about case management as I came into the shelter. I have ME/cfs with POTS (postural tachycardia syndrome), I need to try to shower and go lay down, not be badgered. I have gone to some of their meetings and little gets done, one of them never showed for appointments, then in the end you find out they just want your personal information and have no help. As a homeless person I must walk all over and walking back to the shelter early to fill out one piece of paper is maddening. Dan told me he finds apartments on Craigslist…I know whoda thunk it. The problem is not finding them, it is getting people to rent to me. I have an incredible story of injustice and layer upon layer of trauma and the only reason I believe my story myself is having lived it.

 I have been abused so much by them there is no trust left at all. Their lack of respect and abuse destroyed my chances at justice and my attempt to prevent a malfeasant lawyer from becoming a judge. They would have to be insane after all they have done to harm me if they think I would have any trust in them at all. I do not have Stockholm Syndrome. What goes on at shelters is domestic violence, emotional abuse on steroids and they have no respect for the homeless. Why is this allowed?

Yesterday they announced we could come back to the shelter at 4:30 PM and I am very happy people have a place to go now, it is very cold. Last winter I was hypothermic several times and got frostbite on my toes. I could not believe Boise treated people like that. I kept falling due to the leg cramps, with ME/cfs we are susceptible to muscle tears and the cramping from the hypothermia tore my muscles.

 I was promised the fans would be off tongiht, but have been lied to so much my arrival will be later than that. Showing up early for more fan blowing would not be a good choice. They demanded I give an answer tonight to their attempts to get me into their case management. They got nothing. If they wanted to help me they could have done that long ago by helping me find housing, not throwing my civil cases in the dumpster and treating me like a non-human. They chose to bully me and torture me instead. By throwing out my civil cases they harmed my chances to get housing and tried to blame me for their actions. It was unconscionable.

I am a human being, a real person, intelligent, talented. I am homeless because people wanted me this way due to my being an ethical whistleblower and a political blogger, they still do. They wanted to hinder my ability to fight for justice and tell my stories. They knew with my health problems and then the added PTSD the abuse of the homeless shelters would likely kill me and they may be right

They announced in the newspaper that they do not require case management, but I was harassed for weeks and then the mobbing last night happened. They want access to my personal information including my SSDI. They want to force me into some budget to save money. I have a high IQ and have attempted to save money. Eating at soup kitchens is unhealthy most of the time and there are gastrointestinal issues there, then the massive sugar which causes large numbers of homeless people to develop diabetes mellitus. I must protect my health with supplements for ME/cfs and vegetables for the mitochondrial dysfunction of ME/cfs to try and not get sicker and stop them from killing me. They have tried to force their case management on others. Their actions have been the opposite of help for over a year, I could have used some help but all I got was abuse, illness and misery. Most of the homeless shelters are like this.

Now due to their actions I am very sick and hurting. They should be proud of themselves, once again their actions to harm me were successful. Now Leave me the fuck alone.

Abuse, Harassment, Menacing, No Sleep, Shaking Bed Due to Visitors In The Bed Under Me

Each night I get into bed hoping to be able to go to sleep as early as possible due to being severely sleep deprived for weeks from my bunk being shook through most of the nights. It’s like being at sea during a storm or an earthquake.

I have been so severely sleep deprived for weeks I can barely function and have fallen several times including while trying to get on a bus. I fell this morning while wearing a heavy backpack. My neurological symptoms have gotten very bad so I drop things constantly. I feel like I’m going to die. On multiple occasions, I have complained about this problem and no intervention was taken, but instead I was bullied by staff and lies were told about me. She wakes up at about 1:30 or 2 AM and the bed starts rocking. A couple weeks ago, a nearby person in the dorm says she watches the bed and it looks like an earthquake to her the way the bed moves.

Me/cfs has hundreds of symptoms which is why almost no doctor knows a thing about it. One of the symptoms is a chronic sore throat. I also have Interstitial Cystitis. Imagine being in a homeless shelter with these health issues. The cough drops have menthol which make the symptoms of the IC worse, so I must limit them. On top of the normal ME/cfs sore throat are the allergic and vasomotor rhinitis symptoms caused by the shelter air. The women’s dorm is across from the laundry room, the machines are run 22 hours a day. Yes there is the noise. Often the bleach fumes from that or the mop buckets are very toxic and there are other toxic things in the air. The fans blow dust and cause vasomotor rhinitis as does bleach, so my symptoms get much worse, especially when my head is put down to go to sleep.

With ME/cfs we have frequent vascular headaches due to low blood volume and I can’t do most of the things needed to prevent them, migraines also cause a running nose which makes the sore throat worse. Long ago I explained to staff why I can’t use very many cough drops so substitute hard candies. I was told that was not a problem. Everything is fluid at the Interfaith Sanctuary, today this is the rule, tomorrow it’s that and oh yea we aren’t going to tell you of the change, the rules only apply to certain people and in my case, are either eliminated or added to try and run me out of the shelter. ADA is not abided unless the person has some kind of gear. All those with invisible disabilities are not believed even when a note is brought from a doctor, an ADA violation. Anything that involves the germ theory of disease appears to violate their policies.  

I was almost asleep when two staff came into the dorm and were next to the beds. At first it seemed they were looking at her, then I realized they are talking to me but I had ear plugs in and take one out. I am asked if I am eating candy. Immediately I know where that came from. That person below me use to bring food in and pile it on her bed and has been harassing me about my sore throat treatments while I ignored her. I did not inform on her for having food as there are more pressing issues due to her severe behavior problems and the horrible odor she gives off, but she probably thinks I did. While she is eating she doesn’t talk. I doubt the staff noticed the food themselves as they miss things like gallon size water jugs. Yes, that was quite hilarious and I did demonstrate how a woman was drinking out of it with two hands holding it. The things that go on are hard to believe but true.

Then there were the two younger men on staff treating me, the older woman, one of the few who is not in the adolescent stage of development in that dorm like a child after I complained about her abuse over a period of weeks and told them I was just ignoring her. They were clueless as to what had been going on or that this woman is a sociopath and probably has a second personality disorder. I had been ignoring her behavior over a long period of time and had informed staff she was trying to start trouble which she has done with many people. They in fact moved someone away from her because they are clueless and thought the other woman was the problem. At the Interfaith Sanctuary, the person who reports the problem is to be targeted, the problem is OK with them. She is very menacing and nasty. Nothing was done about it. I continued to just ignore her and had to endure the torture every night of not being able to sleep, being called foul names, being menaced and gagged by her odor. I explain to the two staff what I am using the hard candies for to coat my throat so I can go to sleep if the bed ever stops shaking. I then became infuriated at how they were treating me after this all could go on over a period of weeks and told them every night she wakes me between 1:30 AM and 4 AM or several times shaking the bed for hours, then in the morning when I get up she calls me a fucking bitch. She also comes in and stands looking at me and my bed as if she is looking for something or just stands there staring at me in a menacing way.

If other women are around she calls me foul names and tells them all kinds of illogical crap that makes no sense trying to start something and acts in a menacing way. I just ignored her, but I have been warned she has a history of assault. Night before last when the staff did her bidding to harass me they gave her license to escalate this behavior. I explained that to them but even now doubt that they get it. Why would I be surprised by this when for many months they allowed me to be mobbed by a group of women last winter. Why would I be surprised when those in the higher positions at the shelter have also bullied me and it has been recent including last night.

When her stunt did not result in my being removed from my bunk so she could be free of me reporting the bed shaking she intentionally kept me awake all night. Last night along with lots of other inappropriate comments Dan Ault told me that I was living with 22 other women in the dorm as if it was me that was the problem and just complaining about normal stuff because he can’t listen, take action or make an appropriate decision, he can only bully me.

I got up at one point to tell the night shift staff what was going on and how pissed I was. There was no one there at the desk. I went to the bathroom and came back, still no one. This morning staff said she was there. I told her no she was not and there was another person there when I went to the desk and who he was. She said she was there when he was. No, she was not then, but he is at the desk a lot at night and she could have been in another place in the shelter. What I told her was the truth, I never lie.

Sunday morning this is what I saw when I got up. Keep in mind staff, including Dan Ault were told over a long period of time. 

 It may not have just been her mumbling.

On top of all of that for weeks this person had body odor to the point of my gagging and it was from a particular body part. I complained to staff over and over. After weeks one shower that I know of was taken. The odor was so bad that when the linens were stripped from the bed it was still there and lingered in the bathroom stalls she used as well. I did not tell this story for a very long time trying to be respectful even while being intentionally harmed and while the staff was neglectful, but after the obvious attempt to harm me last night and the staff facilitating it and being harassed by Dan Ault when I come into the shelter under the guise of helping me I decided to tell the whole truth.

Yesterday I attended a hearing in Bethel Alaska by phone to try and prevent a lawyer who harmed me from becoming their judge. I believed I would have to do this while the judge facilitating the hearing tried to stop me from telling the truth, so it was stressful, but he did not do that as he had in the last hearing. Being so sleep deprived I was afraid of how I would sound and was unable to say much due to being so sleep deprived. This is the second of four hearings. The first one happened Saturday while I was sleep deprived, but not as bad. There are two later this week and for one two of those who helped have me wrongfully imprisoned are trying to become judges. The way the shelter is run makes everything hard to do, causes anxiety and stress and traumatizes people. There are some very vulnerable people at that shelter who when bullied by these sociopaths just leave and stay outside even in the winter when it is freezing cold. I watched that last winter.

The civil cases I brought with me to try and get justice and turn around false negative issues with regard to housing were thrown away by the bad decisions of the staff at Interfaith Sanctuary due to treating the decent homeless as non-humans. That was years of work and hard fought for FOIA request results they stole from me. Rather than case management to help people get housing they instead make it much harder. The paperwork needed to rent a place to live also gets thrown out and the process to get everything replaced can be quite a bit of work, many have had their personal documents thrown away. This makes it hard for those looking for work as well. Then when I continue my fight by trying to stop those who harmed me in Alaska from harming others the shelter can’t even let me get some sleep. How on earth do they expect people to do anything, get housing, get a job, anything without sleep and while being constantly, CONSTANTLY emotionally abused. The Interfaith Sanctuary is constant severe domestic violence and it is worse for me than others. Many people end up homeless after being traumatized and then are traumatized at shelters over and over. Interfaith Sanctuary has two serial bullies on staff who have done this for years by their actions of lack of actions.

Last night this woman banged and tapped on the bed while shaking it. She screamed at other people in the dorm demanding they do as she said. She now wears some brace on her foot and uses a cane. I suspect this could be an act to get out of chores or manipulate as she has others make her bed for her. She has a cane, first she took someone else’s and staff had to get it from her. That cane is not a safe thing as she could easily become assaultive which should be something social workers would be able to determine but why is it they can’t? I was in danger and the staff did not care.

She wakes me very early, then I can’t go back to sleep so just wait until time to get up doing without sleep for weeks and weeks while the people who run the shelter are abusive if I complain about it. When I started getting my stuff together to get up she would harass me and call me foul names, every morning, sometimes even coming out into the main area later to continue making nasty remarks. The staff allowed this.

I have no idea what it was about but suddenly this morning there was yelling form the staff office. Someone asked if it was that woman and I said it sounded like her. It was unbelievable the things she was saying, you know just so much like what she has said to me for weeks. She was very aggressively yelling loudly and calling the staff the same foul names she called me for weeks. Then the staff tells her to leave the shelter and she is thrown out, to go get her stuff. She says, “I will not leave!” She leaves the office and goes to her bunk. I still had my stuff on mine and seeing as she is a sociopath I felt there was a danger of theft or damage, so went to stand by in the hallway. For some odd reason, she got one of her slaves to fold her blanket before she left which makes no sense unless she thinks Dan will protect her, so interesting. If that is the case it explains why she could harm me all this time.  I waited for her to get her stuff outside and leave the property before going outside with my things due to a possible assault.   

He told me to look for housing on Craigslist. Oh, I’m familiar with Craigslist and barnies aka customers of prostitution. I also have a fairly high IQ as I explained to Dan. But really, this is his magical plan for finding housing? I have been on Craigslist for years and have searched all over the country for housing. Over the last year in Boise I used Craigslist so I can explain that at the library they often get blocked. I used Craigslist to track a psychopath who stole from me several different ways, helped set me up to be wrongfully imprisoned, starved and tortured my cat and facilitated his brother file a false police report and perjure himself in court, it worked great. I also got screen shots of his ads for prostitution and posted them on line from Craigslist. The police in Homer Alaska thought I was crazy when I told them he was involved in prostitution and used Craigslist, yep they are either customers or very slow. The slow part is well documented.

Dan does this psycho thing when I come in where he harasses me for about twenty minutes saying the same things over and over. He use to follow me down the little hallway saying those things when no one else was there until one day I yelled, “If you think that you’re delusional” and “Stop being crazy.” That was the same hall he punched a homeless man in wasn’t it, but I was not a witness until the man came outside and called the cops, guess he got thrown out since they don’t allow use to call the police, especially after being assaulted by staff. He was talking to dispatch, “Yea, Dan assaulted me” as blood dripped off him. What I said to people was I expected to be the one he assaulted but my vagina must have protected me.

Yesterday the same staff that was on this morning when I complained about the behaviors and that the staff must be condoning it said none of them would condone that. Then I said why was something not done about it, no response. Then I said it was certain Dan was condoning it and she tells me that she knew Dan and he did not. Yes, Dan and other staff do condone it otherwise they would have done something. Action was only taken when she targeted another person, then she was thrown out due to her behavior towards the staff. That first night something should have been done. Things are not right at that shelter, nor are they safe. Dan likes to harass me by saying, “Celia, I’m so happy you feel safe to come back and stay here.” Dan is not happy I am there which is why he harasses me. I tell him no it is not safe, then I get told I can go to City of Lights or he wants to know why I come back. I say, “I’m homeless and this is the homeless shelter.” He has done this crazy crap for months. Now he is on some kick of harassing me about finding housing. He says illogical things about how he finds so much housing. Housing is easy to find, finding low income housing not so much, finding housing for those with social disabilities in Boise Idaho is nearly impossible. I ask him for a list, none is given. Last night he says he is reluctant to give people housing information unless they are in case management. I’ve been in their case management, no thanks.  I told him she is a sociopath but he might not know what that means because he’s a social worker. Hehe. I have social worker stories that will make your hair curl. Crazy stuff.

Dan dismissed my complaints about not sleeping that it had affected my health or that I had caught three viruses from her in a two-week period due to her poor personal hygiene. They like to gaslight a t that shelter, more on this later. When I told Dan I was sick he sarcastically goes, “Always, always.” What an ass. I have ME/cfs and live in pathogens. The policies of that shelter are part of the problem.

There is a clique of people from the Cooper Court tents who come into the shelter in the winter if they are not in prison. They cause all kinds of problems and among them are several sociopaths. When they arrive, the rules are not followed, the staff does not enforce them and they abuse the decent people. One of them kept coming into the women’s dorm last night yelling and carrying on when the rule is if one does not have a bed in there to stay out. That rule is enforced for others but not for them. It was a nightmare last winter. Some of the Cooper Court people were decent people, disabled and with other issues, but some are a big problem. When the old director of Interfaith Sanctuary felt the Cooper Court people were dangerous I now understand what she meant. They let her menace me for weeks. If I am assaulted by this woman there is going to be hell to pay.

Last night when I went into the Conex box where the lockers are this woman and her clique were in there and she began to call me all kinds of names and said things about me drinking coffee in the main area in the morning. It was the same stuff she says to me, but she was louder due to her clique that she controls being there. She said this, “She gets up at 5 AM and sits in the lobby drinking fucking coffee.” I know how could I do such a thing, someone call the police immediately. This was all she could come up with about me for bullying. I don’t get up at 5 AM, it is 5:15 AM unless I oversleep which never happens with her and I may have already been awake for hours before this time due to her shaking the bed.

This morning while I was sitting “in the lobby drinking fucking coffee” a woman whose bed is in a spot to observe what goes on told me why the bed shakes. She has woman who get into the bed with her in the middle of the night. I said that explains it. It is really gross considering the odor wafting. They let this go on for weeks, I couldn’t see it due to it being below me. I did see women kind of duck down towards her bed but thought they were talking to her. OMG! There was a problem over in the family side not too long ago of people doing things one would not do in front of others or sleeping in a room with others and especially when children are present. It went on for quite a while without them being believed. Then they changed the double beds to singles. Telling the truth and not being believed is a chronic problem at Interfaith Sanctuary. Telling the truth and being gaslighted there is quite pathological. 

Yesterday I questioned someone at BPD about the definition of harassment in Idaho. Then I said I would call them when it got really bad again. It was bad this morning and the staff told me if I called the police I would be thrown out of the shelter. They do not do their job, allow harassment, menacing and more but we can't even call the police without retaliation? Is that even legal?