A FB Post From December 29th 2015, Constant Trauma of the Homeless in Boise Idaho, the Libarary Should Be Called One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest

I have experience as Nurse Ratched, restraints and meds all around for everyone.

I have much work due to the constant trauma, harassment and gangstalking started but never published. Today I am very angry about the harassment at the library. The staff does not do anything about most of the problems even when informed. I am very tired of setting up, then having to go ask staff to call security, then security does not show up does nothing or the perpetrator stops their assholery just before they arrive. Then I have to pack up and move. There was a table I sat at sometimes on Sunday away from the other tables, the staff moved it. Years of this. Yesterday noise from behind me, someone laying on the floor. Staff did nothing, no security guard. Tonight I ask the noise maker to please stop, he asked me if I was really there, I said, "No I'm a hallucination." There was a guy on the floor behind me and at least he was quiet. The guy that was sleeping yesterday was quiet too. I sit against a wall by an electrical outlet trying to get away from the problem people in this library and those who come in to intentionally harass me and are allowed by the city of Boise to do so, perhaps even contracted by them. Here is my FB post for today.

He said he didn't really believe me since I was smiling when I said it, part of it is true I am trying to find some kind of protection from the bastards I am exposed to since the City of Boise, the Boise Police Department, the Idaho Housing Finance, HUD, Steadfast Management and at least one government contractor and several Infragard gangster corporate entities of assholery decided to make sure I was homeless again by massively traumatizing me for a year, well much longer than that, but I was at the Civic Plaza Apartments for a year of hell. It is not safe anywhere I go, the park system or parked on the streets at night. There are lots of drugged up drunken crazy bastards in this city and the police gaslight or harass me. The machete comment is due to a woman who lives in a car who posted on the Women's Rubber Tramp Rendezvous FB page that she keeps one. Well, what they hell else can we do and my experience is the BPD is useless, compromised, been given some false information about me and since the city is corrupt as hell they would have to be too.

Celia Harrison

December 29, 2015 ·

The brutal policies against the homeless in Boise Idaho may kill me. I fell Christmas day after being left out in the freezing cold until hypothermia caused muscle cramping which resulted in muscle tears due to ME/cfs, then of course pulled muscles in my back. Then the single people were disrespected Christmas night by Interfaith Sanctuary. Then I became very ill with what is most likely CMV rebloom due to the onslaught against my immune system, but no one would fathom to do labs to see what it is. The symptoms are really bad flu as ME/cfs immune systems are broken in the area of viruses and then our symptoms are worse than normal people. And after a couple days more of hypothermia I was in the ER on Sunday feeling like I was going to die and hoping I would. Then more hypothermia. On Monday after having to call the frickin medical director at Terry Reilly Clinic I finally got a doctor who has functioning brain cells, waiting for medical records. Have an ear infection, but antibiotics are a problem for ME/cfs so will try to do without them. She ordered me a rescue inhaler as I was bronchospasming all over the place. She asked what she could do to make me feel better and I told her 60 Meqs of KCL rapid IV push would be nice, the burning wouldn’t last long. She refused to euthanize me.
To get the inhaler I had to walk on streets covered in ice as Boise is not familiar with salt unless one is downtown. Salt has apparently been banned in areas where homeless people walk. As I was on the phone talking to the haughty secretary at the Interfaith Sanctuary admin. offices I fell. I said fuck when that happened and she was clearly disturbed by it. Yea I will probably swear anytime I fall on the ice Ms. Haughtiness. So I make it finally and get the inhaler. Then I sat at the library a while trying to warm up and rearrange my backpack. I have not had any bathroom surveillance since I posted about it on FB, interesting.
Then I leave the library a little later than normal as I had fallen and hurt my back more and was very cold. I carefully cross the streets especially if it is dark as they have the most egocentric assholey people driving cars here you have ever seen. I am almost hit by someone every day. People who ride bikes here are in a great deal of danger. I was almost to the middle of an intersection when out of nowhere a car comes way to fast right for me. I could hardly see it so I realized later the headlights must have been off. I tried to jump out of the way sure there was no way I would not be hit and she was going to fast I could easily have died. I was wearing a heavy backpack so I fell backwards right in front of the car and was sure she would run right over me. Fortunately, she finally looked and stopped just in the nick of time. I was lying in the street and began screaming, “Do you people in this city every look, do you know what a cross walk is, you almost killed me…if my laptop is broken.” I was then hysterical as I have almost been hit by a car nearly every day I have been in Boise, it’s way worse than the drunks of Alaska, simply due to egocentric assholes. And what the hell is wrong with the police who do nothing about this, it is a well-known problem.
She never once asked if I was OK, she just said, “I’m sorry" and took off. Considering the headlights being off and the speeding she may have been impaired. So my hands are frozen and I can’t write down the license plate. I kept repeating it over and over. I also could not tell what kind of car or the color due to the darkness. Then later could not remember one of the streets right. I am so sick I should be in a hospital it is a wonder I can stay upright. The dispatcher was not very receptive to my complaint. I was very upset, then she kept talking and I could not accurately remember the license plate number, the first 3 numbers I am sure about. I was also hurt more, even with pulled abdominal muscles as well as more back muscles, carrying a heavy backpack. I expected a cop to come as I had almost been killed and certainly was hurt, but all I got was that one would call me. I got to the sanctuary late of course and then fooling with my frozen things outside took quite a while what with my spasming back and abd muscles. Then I had to wait a long time to get my electronics locked up. Then we have to check in and eat, then I took a shower due to being very ill and spasming muscles. I guess a cop called while I was showering and I did not hear the phone ring. But there were a couple more calls and I did not hear those, my ringer was on, the place is really loud. When I came in I told the guy who was on that I had almost been killed and that I was not liking Boise too much due to the brutal policies against the homeless. I said, “How many have they killed?” The only thing I live for is justice and anger at this point, that is what keeps me going. Fortunately, the guy who was on is Jeffry who is not a bully nor a psychopath, but bossy because he is the boss and that is a good thing. He enforces the rules evenly and not in an assholey way.
I am on a top bunk and managed to climb into it knowing I had to get up and pee again and brush my teeth, but I had to lay down. Right after my last I.C. (interstitial cystitis) pee and tooth brushing was lights out I was almost asleep when the lights came back on. Then I sit up and say, what the heck? The woman on the bottom bunk next to mine pointed at the top one next to me and she was hanging over the edge and there was puke everywhere. I had earplugs in so did not hear and I can’t smell anything right now. People went and got ear plugs sticking them up their noses and one was rubbing deodorant under her nose so it must have been bad. Poor Jeffrey had to come help her and cleaned up the mess. Of course he had to use bleach and then sprayed room deodorizer so then I was awake coughing all night from the chemicals, but not much choice there. Apparently there was a second round of puking that I slept through thank goodness.
Then this morning the bed numbers who were supposed to do chores in the women’s area should have been six, only three of us stayed to do them. So I am very ill and rather beat up and stayed to do my part while others took off. Nice. At least I did not have to deal with the Spiced up woman who bullies me in the storage shed daily this morning. On chore days one can’t get a place to sit unless arriving when the day shelter opens so that is why they don’t do chores. So I am at a coffee shop and before that ate something because I G.I. bleed easily and have to take Ibuprofen to survive today. I am nauseous but managed to eat. I was telling someone this morning what happened last night and they said please make trouble because there is a history of this kind of treatment from BPD. The guy that was on said this bike cop usually comes by in the AM so he would send him to talk to me. He never came and I was very slow getting done.
I called and made a request to speak with the Chief of Police and oh he is just too busy today. So I mentioned discrimination and life being cheap in Boise for homeless people. At one point the secretary asked me what officer came to talk to me, OH NO I WAS TOLD IT WOULD JUST BE A PHONE CALL! No one came to see me. My life is worth nothing in Boise Idaho. Assholes.

The Banality of the Homeless US System is About Genocide, Some of US Were Forced Into Homelessness, ADA Violations at Interfaith Sanctuary

Over a long period of time I have written about my life as a homeless person, the injustice I suffered in Alaska and then the very strange harassment that has gone on for years including very strange mobbing behaviors at a USDA RD subsidized, predatory non-profit owned apartment complex in Soldotna Alaska. I have a much better understanding of that now. Apparently the JTTF/FUSION/FBI/CIA here in Idaho has started their Stasi tactics on me helping to make this clear, thanks for the intel, oh and of course it means I am telling the truth because why bother harassing and disrupting a person who lies or is crazy. They spend huge amounts of money on disrupting the lives of people who have pissed off politicians, community bullies, other forms of scum and as someone recently said, the “bad rich people in power.” It is a type of invisible occupying army.

Keep in mind the ultimate goal of the NJTTF is the death of those they make homeless. Now you are thinking, wait a minute, that means they know homeless people are dying. Yes, they do and why build low income housing when you can just keep the homeless in horrible conditions until they get hit by a car, have a cardiac event, stop breathing while in a ketoacidotic coma or have a stroke. Just fill up the low-income housing with immigrants, our own homeless people will die in the USA’s internal genocide, fueled by horrible paying jobs, unhealthy food that has caused people to become disabled, poor elderly who are abandoned by their country, opioid targeting of the homeless population, heavy psychotropic use for sedation, intentional traumatizing facilitated by the homeless shelters and prison system. Remember how the NAZIs went after the disabled first, and then progressed to those they perceived as others? Those vulnerable people who are in the shelters are the targets. 

BTW, homeless people get hit by cars often and it is not reported in the news here in Boise. Some of them are intoxicated and contributed to the accident, but the drivers here are unbelievable. The guy found dead in the canal had been hit by a car, was in a wheel chair, and had been doing lots of drinking, these are facts. There are rumors of a situation where he may have been targeted that are not known to me to be facts. The important thing to understand here is the news media all simply regurgitated the press release about him that left all the details out. 

I do not ever drink, nor use drugs. I must walk for much of my transportation. The drivers in Boise Idaho are very egocentric and numb nutted and I am very angry about the police not doing anything about how dangerous it is for pedestrians. I am nearly hit by a car every two to three days and I watch carefully for cars. They always give that Boise fake smile and a little wave right after they almost kill you, you know, the same smile all the minimum wage workers use due to not even being paid enough to have a place to live. Recently I was in the middle of a cross walk and a man was stopped at a stop sign, he gunned his engine and came at me, stopping about two feet from me. It was as if he waited and then wanted to scare me, hmmm. Last week I was crossing a street where a motorcycle cop was sitting at a red light in the front. I was part way through a cross walk and the light was on my side. A car cut right in front of me, the cop just sat there. I stopped and said he had just witnessed a traffic violation, but did nothing. He pretended not to hear me and I repeated it, he did the same thing. I have had a cop car cut me off and one run at me. What is the deal Boise Police Department and why does the news media not report anything about the homeless being hit by cars and other incidents? The genocide will not be televised. 

I have not written about much of my experiences and observations here in Boise Idaho as a homeless person due to hoping a little information would cause changes, some changes were made. The thing is one can’t make those who are in charge suddenly have empathy, they lack it and shall remain that way until their death. It remains that disabled people who have invisible disabilities are treated like crap, especially myself. Multiple ADA accommodation requests were made at the Interfaith Sanctuary, multiple requests to file a grievance were made, letters were obtained from a doctor, it was all ignored. It is a fact that the laws of Idaho specify each non-profit have a grievance process, but strangely no one enforces that law and the attorney general’s office did a Sargent Schultz routine for me, I know nothing. The letters from the physician were not written with proper medical language reflecting lack of understanding on the part of the physician. Doctors by design of the government know nothing about ME/cfs, except for a few specialists with lists years long those of us on Medicare will never see. 

I am just now getting over a huge flare up of ME/cfs. I have had a horrible time and every night at the shelter have difficulty showering. It is generally understood that showering makes people with ME/cfs very ill. Often there is harassment in the women’s showers and one must pick up garbage and clean mud before even starting to remove clothing, only ten minutes are allotted. Once I had a shower stall where someone had peed all over the dressing side.

I am attempting not to get ill from yet another pathogen at the shelter as I have immune system problems. I ask the staff not to put their hands that go all over the property of others on my paper cup or anything else. I have stopped using their towels as they are handled by multiple people and strange things happen like a guy folding them by using his mouth, yes that was happening, but not as odd as the one who was covered in dirt and would go out and touch garbage, then go back to folding, he was wearing a construction vest which added to the whole scenario. When I approached Dan Ault about that he was condescending, implied I was lying and then tried to make me feel bad I was not folding laundry. Many of us learned long ago not to get involved with them in any way or there is more abuse. Right after Dan implied I was lying the guy walked by covered in dirt. I never lie about anything. 

There is little supervision unless I make a request for accommodation, then they actively and illogically deny very simple things. The issue last night was a paper cup. At first in an accusing tone, the student of social work asked if I had gotten one when I came in. Of course not, otherwise I would not be asking for another one and the chaos at the desk when we come in has a lot to do with people forgetting. You would not believe the abuse that has occurred around paper coffee cups at that shelter. There was one staff I nicknamed ‘The Coffee NAZI,’ no coffee for you.

In the past we could bring a bottle of water into the dorm but due to alcohol use, they finally caught on, they said we could not do that. So now they drink booze out of their lockers. We were told we could instead put some water into our paper coffee cups. Last night Dan Ault said we were not allowed to have water in our paper cups. Dan told me I should bring my own cup, come in to get water and go outside to drink it. We are not allowed outside after 9 PM so I can get into my locker. There are others at the shelter who were there when we were told no water bottles but we could put water in the paper cups. There is blowing air, frequent viruses, lots of allergens in Boise people cough and take sips of water so others can sleep. 

This is called sabotage a bullying technique, change the rules so people can’t be successful. It’s sad watching people at the shelter digging used cups out of the garbage cans in the morning so they can have coffee and that of course spreads pathogens. Apparently, the germ theory of disease is not believed in Boise Idaho. It is also apparent that the social work program at BSU is devoid of science. What they are learning at the shelter is bullying 101.

We all cracked up when for several weeks a woman had a ­­­gallon bottle of water on her bed right next to where staff walked and they never noticed. We watched every night as the hoard of social work students walked by. There were plastic bins and then garbage bags full of things on beds they either ignored or never saw as well. Since the social work students are rarely supervised it took quite a while for a regular staff to notice. Dan would go by and grab whatever the contraband was and we would crack up because he had no idea it had gone on for weeks. I wonder why they have bedbugs? LOL. 

Last night I realized that not only is there very little empathy and conscience from the management at the Interfaith Sanctuary, but they are intentionally doing ugly things to cause problems. This is when I knew I had made a big mistake holding back publishing. I also had a friend who cut and pasted something I wrote about the day before. He forgot to add my name so commenters thought it was him on vacation. They thought he was in a third world country, one of them asked if he was doing one of his research projects and another one said that did not sound like a good vacation. It was hilarious to me, but also sad. The homeless are living in third world or fourth world conditions in the United States with little hope for housing by design. Many of the homeless are not responsible for their plight, due to disabilities, being elderly, economic conditions, lack of housing and some of us were made homeless.

I have ME/cfs and have had it as far back as my memory goes, to about age three. I believe I have had this my whole life. The government demonized the illness as well as those who have it, refused to do research, put shills on committees etc. Recently through private funding we have had huge break throughs, broken Krebs cycles, calcium transport into cells issues and now evidence it is a very complex autoimmune disease. We have complex symptoms and certainly it is clear I was never get health care in Boise Idaho. 

I believe DES caused my health issues. My government allowed drug companies to sell a drug called DES, diethylstilbestrol  to pregnant women with the false claim that it prevented miscarriages. Back then people were told by advertisements even from doctors cigarettes were good for them and other crazy things. My mother had endometriosis, smoked cigarettes and was anorexic, of course she had miscarriages. They did a surgery and gave her a high dose of DES which effected the development of every cell in the fetus that would be me. Doctors are not what people think they are, there are some very intelligent ones who do research, but most just follow like sheep. They believed what the drug companies told them and for some reason ignore their own observations in their practices, not all of them, but most. This was a scam to make lots of money done at the same time as Thalidamide. You can’t see the vaginal cancer, the silent trauma, the breast cancer, the deformities of the sex organs, the brain changes, the immune system problems, especially autoimmune, the infertility, the abnormal bone cells, behavior changes due to androgenization of the females and the feminization of the males, the DES exposed men who are trans-sexual and the silent trauma. They paid off lawyers and put false news articles in newspapers to prevent us from organizing for compensation. We had to bear the burden of the health care costs along with our insurance companies. Later they did procedures on us that caused more harm to make money.

The FDA allowed this and we now know they facilitate dangerous drugs being sold. DES did not prevent miscarriages, it caused them. The medical schools are controlled by drug companies who make large donations allowing them to dictate what goes on, they stopped them from teaching future doctors about DES. When I seek health care they know nothing about a DES Daughter and say all kinds of crazy things to me. I can only go to an older GYN, but in Boise I can’t get real health care on any level. Those who have ME/cfs are treated like garbage and in Idaho nothing is known. We are misdiagnosed. I also have PTSD, females with PTSD are often misdiagnosed. I have misdiagnoses in my medical records from Terry Reilly and I would like some questions answered about the staff who did this. Then when I complained about that and the false claims of the MD director who says his specialty is mental health when he is not a psychiatrist or psychologist, they fired me as a patient, like I was going back there. I did go back to throw a speech about a mentally ill woman who had been thrown out of the Interfaith Sanctuary in the winter, was outside all night and in very bad shape that day. I would often go looking for her and help keep her from being thrown out of Albertsons so she could warm up. I called Adult Protective Services who are of course about as helpful as a broken crutch everywhere. Adult Protectie Service everywhere is about the same, working on the streets with the homeless, prostitutes and in the those crap buildings they had in Spokane in the 1980s they did nothing and let my elderly clients just die.  

One of the main functions of these clinics of incompetence all over the country is to load the homeless up on psychotropic meds. Half of the mental health problems among the homeless are caused by the abuse at the shelters, from the police abuse, from the communities, from the bullying and from having their property lost or stolen often by staff at the shelters (over and over). People are dehumanized in so many ways and given very few choices to be healthy, this disentagrates people. One can’t even be themselves, can’t do simple things like crochet, sew, read, garden, can’t cook a meal but instead we must eat unhealthy food. Just like in the inner city areas of larger cities where there are mostly minorities even if the homeless have money to buy food it is unhealthy, can be difficult to get to and the healthy food is in another area of the city. Even the only grocery store has limited choices, especially when we of course have no refrigeration or cooking facilities.  

Everything is taken from us. In my case I was made homeless intentionally so these things would happen to me and it happens to others. I don’t care if the people running this nightmare think I am crazy or they tell people that, there are people who know I am telling the truth, their numbers are growing and some are in the same situation as me. They harm health and in combination with the high sugar and low nutrition diets of the homeless cause diabetes mellitus, heart disease, strokes etc. They call this helping the homeless. What the homeless need is housing, but instead of housing we have meetings and lies given to the public. How can those who go to the meetings help people get into housing when there isn’t any?

I Got to Drink Coffee in the Main Room, Darkness Descends Again, Journalism Sucks in Boise

This morning we had the former night shift guy on, so rather than stay in the dorm I came out and sat in the main room. I was happy and that just can’t be allowed to go on. 

Darkness Abounds. Will I Be Blamed?

When I went outside to the Conex box where my locker was the strings of Christmas lights they are using which provides poor light to begin with were out. It was very cold which means hurrying to put stuff in and get stuff out, but no light so frozen fingers. Someone had a flash light, so helped me get my locker opened to get to my flashlight, then I helped two people with mine. Then the lights came back on. This happens fairly often. Jury rigging with strings of Christmas lights, what could go wrong? I had no one pour coffee into my locker, put their muddy robe hanging over it or drape their wet jeans over it last night, something must be wrong in the universe.

This is how we have to live and it is not the weather that makes us catch pathogens. I suppose if I complained to Dan about the lights being out often he would say it was my fault because I had not wired the Conex boxes and installed the lights. Of course, I have the authority to make these decisions and do whatever I want, you know since I can’t generally sit in a damn chair in the morning or even bring in crocheting or my laptop so I can write, oh and FFS can’t bring in more than what can fit into a gallon size baggie at one time, but it’s all my fault, everything. Let’s not forget that I am not allowed to do any chores until 7 AM.

The Crazy Shower Wars of 2016 Seem to be Continuing Through 2017.

Last night there were two people signed up for the three shower stalls at 7 PM, I was the only one signed up for 7:10 PM. I went into the bathroom early right after 7 PM. There were three people in the shower. Often our times run over as they only allow ten minutes for a shower, what those of us with common courtesy do is simply get our showers done as fast as we can and move on so others can shower, especially if they are waiting. I expect to wait some, but this was ridiculous. These women knew people were waiting and took around ½ hour. One of them got angry when I mentioned the other woman had an appointment she needed to get to and said, ”I need at least 15 minutes to shave and I won’t be played that way.” What the hell that even means in this situation I do not know. I have had women intentionally go into the showers so I could not get in and they were not showering. This has all gone on since I got there and greatly increases my health problems due to the orthostatic issues. They could care less. But it is frustrating for everyone because they come to shower and find they will not get in for a long time. We all run over but most of us care that someone is waiting and try to hurry rather than just sit there and socialize.

I got tachycardic, nauseous and dizzy secondary to Postural Tachycardia Syndrome while standing there which happens a lot, due to low blood volume which is typical of ME/cfs because I had to stand there so long. Leaving the bathroom means you lose your spot waiting, so it is hard to tell the staff. I was told one of the main reasons they have all this extra staff now was to supervise the women’s dorm and showers, that never happens unless someone goes and gets them and even then it may not. There are many arguments over the showers, I tend to report the problems to staff rather than argue because there is not point to it, they are egocentric. 

Riotous Dorm.

It was nuts in the women’s dorm last night. Intoxicants slurring and yelling and quite a bit of crazy behavior. It’s like a junior high school slumber party. This is SOP. 

Propaganda Abounds. 

The news media propaganda about the homeless getting housing continues. A reporter told me that just repeating press releases from the shelters is journalism when I had told her that not verifying what they told her was not.This is SOP for Boise Idaho journalism.